Love is in the air…

Love is in the air… and I don’t have to go far in search of it, coz it’s happening right in front of my eyes… we never thought that a prank would shape up into something like this… probably it’s not from both ends or who knows may be it is… but if somebody really cares to ask my opinion I would really want that whatever is happening should turn into something good, the way I want it to be… we live in a world where hardly anyone cares for us so much and when we find such people who actually cares for us in every possible ways then we tend to avoid them… or perhaps silently love them but never gather the courage to pour out whatever is inside our heart… the question here is why??? Coz we are scared what others would say… we end up thinking about each and every person of this world whose opinion is not even required and seldom have we thought about the person who deserves it… I know someone who loves someone a lot and when I say a lot that means he is really mad for her… he loves her silently and probably she knows everything about it but as every other girl she is also very diplomatic and she says that she is still confused… I don’t what is there to be confused... there can be only two things either she loves him or she don’t… but girl have this part as well… the confused state… hope I could understand their psychology… he is my friend and I know the depth of his love and I wish he gets what he really wants from life… when on one hand someone’s heart has been pierced into several pieces I find some good positive energy going around me which gives me immense happiness and satisfaction and I pray from my heart that whatever happened with me should never happen with any of those people who are around me… probably I am asking for too much but that’s really what I want now… today we just joked about one of our friend and we linked him up with a girl just for some amusement but the result that came out of our another prank was unbelievable… I think my friend has fallen for her or probably he wants to fall for her… and I am sure that if not today then probably after a week he will… people who are reading might even think that we are useless bunch of friends who don’t respect the thing called love… I don’t know how anyone feels about this… I am just writing what I am feeling about this situation… and I don’t think that we should be accused for playing any prank on our friends… Afterall it’s our birth right… and anyway the outcome is not in our hands… and who knows if things goes well for them then atleast we would feel proud that coz of our prank someone is happy and if it doesn’t work out then as I said the outcome is not in our hands… life is unpredictable you don’t know what is there on cards for you… whatever we have in our own hand is today that’s why it is called Present… it’s a gift to us from the lord and we have every right to play with it… do anything according to our wish coz no one knows what will happen tomorrow… so be happy… enjoy your today play with it in your own way… and anytime if things doesn’t work out the way we had imagined that just remember these words that life is too damn unpredictable and we can’t take even a single thing for granted… we may live or die that’s the only two things that’s gonna happen to anyone… but its upto us how we want to live or how we want to die… do you wanna regret that you missed those funs when you will be on your death bed… or you wanna be satisfied that you lived your life…

P.S – I apologize if I have offended anyone’s sentiments unknowingly; it’s just about my freak friends…

Happy Friendship Day!!!

Friendship is a bond which anyone can’t explain in words, it is the most beautiful bond in this world one has, life without friends is plain and boring. They are someone who pulls our leg, all the time for anything and everything. Someone who always cheer us up even if we are totally screwed up!! We fight, we argue, we laugh and make others laugh… this is friendship. Unconditional like few other relations of this world...

But sometimes we insult the purest relation of this world, sometimes we tend to give more importance to love over friendship… we like someone, we fall in love, we come into some relationship and we end up messing up with friends. We don’t spend more time with friends now which usually we use to, but they never complain. We do anything and everything for our love relation seldom we do so much for friendship even though one day mostly people gets dumped by the same person whom we loved so much, for whom we avoided our friends, for whom we lied to our parents, for whom we fought with our siblings and when this cruel reality hits us hard then we realize the importance of these relations in our life and then we feel guilty. We go back to our friends though we can’t look at them directly in their eyes and say “I am sorry!!” Instead of whacking us hard they just give us a much needed hug and whisper into our ears “that’s okay yaar it happens in life this is not the end, check out that hot chick!!” So this is friendship, which has no conditions, no expectations, and no rules.

After our parents and siblings, its only friends who can understand our state better, and sometimes they are the only one who will understand our state, who will support us without giving it a thought the amount of risk involved in certain situations, they don’t give a damn to it, just jump along with us even if it’s a fire.

It all started in 1935, The United States Congress proclaimed the first Sunday of August as the National Friendship Day. Since then, celebration of National Friendship Day became an annual event. The noble idea of honoring the beautiful relationship of friendship caught on with the people and soon Friendship Day became a hugely popular festival. Following the popularity and success of Friendship Day in US, several other countries adopted the tradition of dedicating a day to friends. Today, Friendship Day is enthusiastically celebrated by several countries across the world including India. 

In 1997, the United Nations named Winnie - the Pooh as the world's Ambassador of Friendship.

Even the holy Bible states the importance of friendship. The Bible, the primary text of the western civilization, reflects upon friendship as the bond that forms the foundation to human faith, trust and companionship. Following verses from the bible aptly portray the importance of friends: 

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” 

Matthew 7:7

“Greater love hath no man than this that a man lay down his life for his friends.”

John 15:13-15

In the famous Hindu epic ‘Mahabharata’, Lord Krishna demonstrates the many colors of friendship - affection, romance, brotherhood, protection, guidance, intimacy and even teasing. Friendship is all about these and much more.

Friendship is the most holy relationship in this world, the purest one. They are the only one who gives us those golden memories that we can cherish lifelong. Some stay for life some for an instance but we always remember them all. We always play all those moments in the theatre of our mind and feel content about it. Sometimes we just laugh out loud even though when we are sitting alone when we start the flashback in the back of our head. Sometimes we do commit some mistakes and loose them forever, but they are always in our heart, even though we show everyone that we hate them to the core indirectly we still love them by remembering them all the time…

the one person i can tell my soul too 
Who can relate to me like no other 
Who I can laugh with to no extents, 
Who I can cry too when times are tough, 
Who can help me with the problems of my life. 
Never have you turned your back on me 
Or told me I wasn't good enough 
Or let me down 
I don't think you know what that means to me 
You have went through so much pain and you still have time 
For me. 
And I love you for listening even when inside YOU are dying 
And I look up to you because you are strong, 
and caring and beautiful. 
Even though you don't think you are. 
And I hope you know that I am always here 
To listen to you laugh and cry and help 
In all the ways that i can 
And I will try to be at least half the friend you are 
To me. 
I hope you know I would not be the person I am today, without you...

Wishing everyone happy friendship day!!!

Long live friendship…!!!

A poor stranger…

In the search of a ray of light,

I screamed all over the place…

Eyes are not ready to adjust,

With this sudden changed nature…

I am blanketed with a feel of isolation,

And I am unqueued…

My best buddies found a new way,

Where I am never viewed…

Often I am left broken,

Often my soul cries,

Missing those pearl like days,

It’s hard to strive…

It gets onto my nerves sometimes,

And I am lost in anger often…

My close ones are no longer the same,

It seems everything has frozen…

Sometimes I am jealous with them,

When a new face becomes so familiar,

And a known face of mine is neglected,

 As a poor stranger…

If you expect love,

And your ears are gifted with harsh words,

It pains like hell…

Depression seals my lips,

And eyes resembles flood…

I never say to love me,

But my eyes do expect them…

I never say to scold me when I go wrong,

But my heart do expect them…

Every attempt to get out of this dejection surrenders,

Unfulfilled expectations often freshens my wounds,

Trying to smile in a hope that,

I will be blessed someday…

I Lost Something in this Crowded World...

I don’t know why people have so much of issues. Okay, I agree to the fact that this is life which is way more complicated than we think it is but why people have this habit of adding tensions to their life. When they can make their life simpler, then why they are so much obsessed of making it a bit more complicated than actually it is.

A week before, my best friend broke our five years long friendship just because I couldn’t call her up when she asked me to. Actually it’s not her fault completely but the reason was too lame to end five years long friendship. I couldn’t call her then and whenever this thing happens, she always taunt me that I am not there when she needs me and now she thinks it’s better to be alone and all that crap.

Ok, I accept when we are in trouble we look out for our closest friend and I am honored that she asked for my help. But if it is not humanly possible for anyone to be there when you need them then what anyone can do about it. I was tired of her taunts and tantrums and so I lost my temper. And we ended up breaking our five years long friendship.

I must tell you one thing that I am way too patient but when I lose my temper then I always end up losing someone.

From past five years I never raised my voice or did anything that would lead to a great fight. But when I did that eventually I lost her. I regret it now, she was really close to me and I think I lost her.

But deep within my heart I have a second thought. If she really treats me as her closest friend then why can’t she overlook my flaws? Nobody is perfect; everything has its pros and cons. When I am there when she needs me then I am the best person for her and when I am not then I am the worst guy.

This is the human psychology. People never tend to find out the reason behind something instead they always have an opinion for you. And then they will ask you to change your attitude for them. If you do that then you escape the whole taunting & tantrum part but if you don’t then this whole taunting & tantrum part would suffocate your life with hell lots of miseries and no matter how emotionally strong you are you end up losing your temper one day and then people give you the tag that you are a fake person now. When they were pleased with you and your attitude then you were quite honest and true kind of person for them. But when you try to change the situation then you are a fake person.

I don’t understand this part of my life and as I always say this is life which is too unpredictable. When you think things are fine then all of a sudden the whole universe comes crashing down…

“If you can’t overlook the flaws of your loved ones then you shouldn’t have an opinion for them…”

Long Live Friendship…!!

    Mayank…

For You Mom...

This poem is written by my friend Priyanka, and after reading this poem all i wanted to do was share it with everyone. After joining her college what all she went through is reflected by her words. How the ragging started and how everyone was waiting for their chance to knock her down.   

And when someone is in a big trouble, where you can't think of anyone then only one name comes in your mind "Mom".

So this poem is dedicated to all "Moms" of this wonderful world... 

"Crushed, exhausted and tired veins,

Wet pillow weaves the depth of sorrow,

When my eyes comes to rain,

My fate took me here,

And someone caring I can hardly find.

People are just enrolled with revenge and strategy,

Cooking up in their mind,

Every night my silly brain gets a new reason

And I get a jerk that is,

Tearing me apart and sucking the charm,

That my face had perked.

Spiky roads awaits for my arrival every day with a new blow,

As if they get plenty of pleasure tasting my innocent blood flow.

To get rid of these dejections,

I have prisoned my freedom and grace.

Three petals in the four walls make,

My life colorful to face,

Collecting the reasons to smile,

Many times I failed and was left scattered.

I am alone, miles away from you maa,

And my every beat misses the care that you nurtured.

I just wish to get your lap,

The moment I am isolated with craps,

Can’t you be always with me?

Can’t you take me out when I am trapped??"

                                                  -        By Priyanka

Waiting Forever...!!

Friends are like angels; they come into your life and change the course of your life. They give you innumerous reason to smile and in return they never ask you for something. If god asks me to make a wish then I would ask him to take me back to that time, to that night when I had fight with one of my closest friend and definitely I would change everything. The night when I don’t know what happened and how it happened, all I know is that night changed the shape of my life. Perhaps it happened because of my stupidity but my intention was to save someone’s relation coz that very person was really close to me. I know this must be confusing you all so let me get this straight to you rather than beating around the bush.

After completing my 12^th grade (that I did from Hyderabad) I was back to my native place (that’s Bihar) and decided to drop one year as I couldn’t crack the engineering entrance exams and I had no other option left. Back in Hyderabad my friends got admission to some engineering colleges and they were busy with their new life. We gave a name to our group, we were proud to be a part of HAWX gang. There were 8 of us, names I don’t want to disclose here. Two years that I spent in Hyderabad were the golden period of my life, the friends that I made there, the fun that we all had are still fresh and vivid in my head as if it all happened a day before. But somewhere I messed things up, I lied to them about my marks, about my rank and I denied giving them a proper explanation when they found out that something was fishy, they still owe me big time. It’s been two years now and today something happened that reminded me about my mistake and I think this would be the best way to apologize (that I have already done n^th times) and I think it’s high time now.

Let me get back to the point and apologies for beating around the bush yet again. So what I was telling, it’s been exactly two years and 12 days from that night when things changed dramatically. I never expected that my emotional outburst would change the course of my life so dramatically. I thought that this was a nightmare and tomorrow when I will wake up things will be alright but this happens only in reel life but not in real life. One of my closest friend whom we use call Weirdo decided to break his eight months old relationship with his girlfriend, who is my sister and he didn’t even tell me about it. Perhaps he thought it was his personal matter and it should be kept between him and his girlfriend. I got to know about this from my sister and that thing really hurted me somewhere that my best friend didn’t tell me about all this. We use to bunk our class to clear his confusion and help him realizing the fact that he was really in love with this girl. I use to lie to my grandparents and use to return home really late at night coz I had to spend some time with my best friend. Everything that I did for him was unconditional, I did it coz I was willing to help my friend even if sometime I had to go beyond my own limits. But when I confronted all this to him that night he said something to me that really pierced my heart.

 He said, “u stay outta dis, it’s my personal matter.” But its human’s nature when we are asked not to do anything we do exactly opposite to what we are asked to and I went on asking him the reason why he was doing this. In simple words he msgd me, “this relation has got no future, no point on breaking our head for this. Better I move on and let her move on too.”  Maybe he was right if we look from his point of view, he was not sure where this relation would go and so he decided to end it. But I thought it was too late to take this kind of decision later I realized that it’s never too late. And I started doing things that I shouldn’t have done, maybe that night if I would have stayed out of his personal matter which was actually none of my business then today things would have been quite different, it’s his life after all. He’s the one who governs it and if I were in his place then I think even I would have asked not to interfere in my personal matter. I don’t know what exactly was going through my head that night. I thought I can stop him from taking this big decision of his life and I messed things up. I hurted him, I told him things that he never expected and as expectations always lead to disappointment, he was really disappointed. And that was it, end of our friendship from his side and since you can’t clap only with one hand that was the end. When the rest of the people of our group got to know about this eventually, they too stopped talking with me…

I was broke, alone and frustrated with my failure on one side and broken relationships on the other, it was taking a toll on me. I realized what a blunder I had done that night and since that day till today I had apologized like n^th times. I don’t know why it happened and how it happened, it was a bad day for me and if I could have controlled my emotions then today things would be totally different.

Today they all are busy in their own life but my life is still searching for them. Every morning when I wake up, I always think of some way through which I can convey them that how much do I love them and how much do I miss them. I know they will never forgive me and they will never talk to me coz I had committed lots of mistakes. If I can go back to the time and change something then I would definitely change this. Through this I just want to convey them one thing that I am really sorry about everything and I will be waiting for that day to come when I will be with you guys again like our old times. That would be the best moment of my life and I would live it again and again and again…  

Friends Forever!!!

I recently visited my brother’s college as his final year got over he asked me to come over. Moreover I wanted to experience the thrill of final year getting over.

I reached there on 10th June early in the morning making my way through the narrow lanes of Gunupur (somewhere in Orissa), the place where my brother stays or should I say he used to stay. Life moves really fast, faster than you can imagine. It feels like it’s just the start of the college when you realize that it’s already over. It’s amusing isn’t it?

So where was I? Ya I just reached his college and what I saw was really amazing. I was dumbstruck there when I heard someone calling me from the other side of the road. It was my brother standing at the gate of his college, Gandhi Institute of Engineering & Technology.

The whole college was surrounded by beautiful natural sceneries. There were trees & hills all over the place. It was a perfect holiday site. What a beauty? I reflected. I crossed the road finally, greeted my brother and made my way inside his college when it struck me. What this college was doing in the middle of nowhere? I mean this place is perfect for vacation, how anyone can spend his four years of life here? No market, no hangout place all you can see with your naked eye is just hills all over the place. It must have been tough.

Here let’s fast forward our tape a little, 12th June was the date that I remember. I was waiting at the Gunupur new bus stand. Everyone was leaving so I came along with my brother to bid them a final goodbye. I looked around, everyone’s eye were moist. They all were happy that yes they’ve finally made it. They were engineers now. This was the time they’ve always waited for. There was no looking back now. No more backs, no more semester exams nothing. Their eyes said it all but they looked sad. Although they promised each other that they will meet each other, they will be in touch forever and ever but deep within their heart they all knew that this was not possible. Life after college is a mess. You don’t get enough for yourself, how you will manage to get some time for friends?

Being an engineering student myself I understood what they all were going through. All the fights that they had, those close cricket matches, those birthday parties, the boozing sessions, the night outs, group discussions everything they will miss out. Now there won’t be anyone by their side to guide them, no one to correct them when they went wrong, and no one who will lend their shoulder for you to cry on. This is what we call life. As the clock ticked nine, the driver started the ignition, the conductor signaled that it was their time to say final goodbye to each other. Everyone started hugging each other and started crying like a little baby. They kept saying “I will miss you buddy”. Photos were clicked, diaries were filled and all those moments spent together were recorded in their head that will be there with them till their last breath.

This is life, it moves faster than you can imagine. And life after college is a mess. You have more responsibilities towards your own life, your family expects even more now. You don’t have a second chance here; if you failed in something then you come crashing down in just one shot. And there is only one thing that keeps circulating in your head – how to make more money? You lose contact with your friends. You hardly go out with anyone. You get married; soon you are the father of two kids. You become busier than ever and slowly slowly you get lost in your own world so much that you forget that there is a life out there waiting for you. But you are way too busy to notice this and you turn into a grumpy old man who keeps shouting on people out of his own frustration and finally the ring bells and you are on your own death bed.

So here is something that I would like to say before concluding this, life is for once. Live the moments whether they are good or bad, make friends, hang out, keep partying but always stay focused to what you want to achieve in your life. It shouldn’t be like if you are doing something then you are totally engrossed in that work so much that you forget that you have your own life. Enjoy all the moments and be happy even when you are in a complete mess. The one who succeeds in doing all this is the one who lives his life to the fullest.

Best of luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!